My apologies for not posting more during January, it has been one of those months. And you guessed it I became ill again – yes again, also I sprained my foot. So you ask why I am feeling down, well let me tell you. I am feeling down because my efforts at the Gym have not been as productive as I would have liked, and my food intake has been atrocious.
There have been that many setbacks to my progress that I am slowly losing faith, in myself and in my ability to once again start to make progress. I know you have heard it all before and I agree it sounds like a cop out.
I have just been agonizing over it, blaming myself, blaming others. It is honestly a vicious circle. The good news to this whole thing is that I finally got my period. And it was actually under two months that I had it last. I think the Gym is helping me with that.
My fitness has improved quite a bit, however my weight is the same – well from what I can gather. It is a terrible thing to always fall ill or injure yourself and not be able to do the things you would like for example – the Gym. I feel like I am on a roller coaster.
The one person that has been very encouraging is Julie my personal trainer, she said that I am doing really well, but even though she says that I don’t feel that way. I even got that frustrated with my foot that I did the step up; I made it higher and hurt my foot again. I really kicked myself over that stupidity.
I was so impatient that I stuffed myself up. I guess I just keep trying and do my best not to hurt myself or get sick and I should be fine right? If anyone knows a good place to go online to create a meal plan for the week, please leave your comments with the details.
You know I feel a lot better now that I talked to you all about this; sometimes getting stuff off your chest really helps. Please stay tuned as I am working on something that you will really enjoy.