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I have noticed that most of my readers have been following my progress or lack of getting pregnant. Well I am still not pregnant. It has been 4 years since we have been trying to have a baby and those 4 years have been really tough to handle, especially for me.
I have been to specialists and read articles on the subject and I am more confused now than I ever was. Honestly – eat this, don’t eat that, stop smoking, and lose weight blah blah blah. I really can’t take it anymore.
What is a girl to do to get the correct information about Poly cystic ovary disease? I have never been as frustrated in my life as I am now, all the things we should do to get pregnant and other women fall pregnant just by looking at their partner.
I really feel as though all my efforts to change my habits and perhaps get healthy enough to fall pregnant have been in vain. It is just not working for me and I am just about to give up altogether. Then deal with the fact that I will never be a mother.
Do not ask me how I will do this, but I have to try to accept it and move on. I am sick to death of all the stress I have been under because of it, and just generally feeling awful. I just want to be happy again minus all the pressure.
You know what I am talking about, the times when people that haven’t seen you in a long time ask, so how long have you been married? Oh, shouldn’t you have kids by now? The questions people ask you are ridiculous. It really @#**#$ me off and very hurtful because then you feel even more like a failure because then you have to explain your situation.
So you ask how I feel now, well I don’t feel very good, my health isn’t where I want it to be, and emotionally I am devastated. Trying very hard just to keep myself from getting depressed about it, and stop crying. I will be ok, but I don’t know when I will be happy again.